very very very very low....

one bad thing happening every single day..

this has got to stop...

if this goes on....i will not be able to cope anymore

crushing chest pain....sigh.....

dear god...please don't let more bad things happen to me anymore...

at least not again these few weeks ....

more of my beloved friends are leaving for school once again... please don't go..i hate to be stuck in hong kong already...and u guys are all leaving!!!

pretty relieved these 2 days...i know i should start catching up my skool stuff...i kinda missed 10 lectures and a tutorial for my exam...not that it's not worth it...but i realised that what they said about women being able to do mutiple tasks at the same time totally doesn't apply on me...i'm like, i can't even think properly when i have things on my mind...so for the  past months, i didn't know actually what happened in skool...o dear...and exams are coming up..

natalie asked me again if i meant what i said...and YES ar!!! i soo know that u are just kidding right?? u're so young to know what lies ahead right now...but i totally know what i want..and i'm 99 if not 100% sure about what i'm saying!~~ haha....but u don't have to keep your promise...and i know u won't!

michelle michelle!!! i miss u so so much....wish u wouldn't have to leave!!! i can't understand why the stupid medical skools in hk won't take u in..gosh u're even accepted by one in uk!! surely that makes u better than any of us here!!! if u were here...i'll flunk to be in the same class with u.....booohoooo.....do come back to practise!!!i was kidding when i told u to stay there....u've got to come back!!!

went to mass today in the newly renovated St. Margaret's church... it's so peaceful i'm sorry  that i hadn't gone to mass for like months... i almost forgot how deeply inspired and fresh i become after each mass... and i regret so so much that i was defeated by just one word from  sister So!!!! i should've insisted to continue my lessons!!!! now i don't know when i'll ever have time to attend anymore!!!!! i wanna stab my heart due to my big big sin!!!!! but i won't....on account of we sang "  i wanna be like lord" today...and i'm pretty sure god doesn't stab himself when he regrets...not that He needs to regret about anything tho.....we should try to solve problems...face them with power and might!!!..!!! see how inspired i am!!!

pray for the victims of Katrina and 9.11

wow!! a whole new entry box with lots of gadgets!! suddenly decided to write more often!

let's see, let's write about my new rotation in O&T, umm....it's downright boring...everyday we go there and watch videos on our own, and nobody explains stuff to us on the ward..but i could really use the free time we've got for a bit of patching up, my phae is so lost, anyways... i hope i can learn to like it later on....

umm...turns out team 4 might not be as good as we're boasting, cos the new group doens't seem to like it as we do... we've concluded our fondness of it to a few reasons. first, it was our first attachment, no comparison possible, secondly, we totally admire these doctors based on unexplainable terms, thirdly, we've developed some kind of "psychiatric" disorder in which we tend to associate our thoughts with reality .

uh o.....something not good happened...my mom is pissed,,, better go

He is just sooo sooo COOL!!!! i cannot think of another soul on earth that could be so cool!!! how does he do it...being 2 so distinct persons, and at the same time be so good in both roles!!! don't these people only appear in movies!?! o my gosh~!!!! he is totally the no.1 idol on my list now!! i must stop my stupidity asap in order to follow his path to coolness~! to the bottomline, it's not his charm and handsome looks and cool acts that got to me..but it's how he can manage to be such a great success in his interests and his career that is really worth learning from!!! i hope i could be like him in the sense that i could also have another side of me that is reflective of my talents and interests but on the other side, i'm  serious and responsible in my work....umm...my ultimate goal....so the first thing is to start working on my interests..and ya, of course to study!! cos can't fail at that either!!

i must proclaim again: HE IS WAY COOL!!!!